Running short...

Time is running short....

5 weeks to my due date of the draft version of my FYP report....

Still struggling to set up my monitoring tool....

When can i start analyzing data....

Otherwise....

Nothing to compare and argue in my report.... d=_=b

FYP

I feel so stuck and lost now....

I have seriously no idea what i am doing for my fyp other than knowing that i need to acquire some signal and displaying it on certain GUI....

I cannot even understand what i am doing after some trial and error of getting what i want....

I have nothing to assure my reading is accurate and correct....

I don't even know if i am getting the right research materials....

My supervisors seem really keeping a distance away from me....

I doubt my FYP professor will even know me if i walk pass him...

I thought of suspend myself from school for 1 semester......

Feeling terrible....

My flu is really irritating....

Drowsy soon.... d=_=b|||

Learning

I wonders.....

To what extend have i applied my knowledge i learnt from school into my final year project....

Basically....

Nothing....

Pathetic....

Really ???

My perspective....

My scholarly friend argued that our FYP is not meant to be a project for us to apply our knowledge we learnt in school....

But rather to make us or give us the experience on how to plan or research a project....

Sound sensible and logical though....

Then what we learnt can only applied in examination...

True ?

I wonders...

Speechless

Oh yeah...

My words came true....

I flung my quiz!!!

Completely demoralized....

Again....

I did my tutorials...

In fact....

Majority did quite well...

I am the "minoritiyness"....

My days trying hard to revise seem wasted...

I was challenging the question without trying hard to solve it...

Or perhaps I was just "acting" to be hardworking....

Often...We always thinks that we need complicated method to solve a complicated problem...

It is seems that studying too much will makes us from thinking of the simplest way to solve a problem...

Which is why often the amazing discovery usually comes from a nobody....

What is next now ?

Start doing past year paper ?

I am really getting older....

Can't remember so well than before...

Easily agitated....

Telltale sign dO_ob?

How now?

Great...

Flung my quiz today....

I have been more hard working than usual in this semester...

Completed my tutorials before the lessons ...

Yet I dazed during the test....

Because I was completely lost....

I know how to do yet my mind was completely blank...

How frustration it was....

Not giving up.... Still doing my best...

Simply Lost Edwin

Tiring

Weird...

I started to get tired easily lately...

Only slept for 5 hours or less for the past few days...

Lamest thing is that i still could not make my time to do my final year report..

Spent too much time solving my tutorials....

I feel so inefficient....d=_=b|||

I am trying to convince myself to do my report now...

But seriously too tiring...

Scarily [x_x] Edwin

虎年初一

Happy Chinese Year!

The motivation of this post was to relieve or express myself of what ever i am paranoid with and couldn't share with anyone else....

Things seem uncertain and unclear and paranoid is often the resultant of such uncertainty...Guessing and imaging have been the best reasoning for things that are happening... Often, some couldn't overcome it and make the end of life as the solution....

Well... I should say that it is one of the phase of life that we need to overcome... something like experiencing the adolescence phase; the phase that decides the moral and ethic behavior in our eventual adulthood...

Fortunately, this phase is never a question to the meaning of my life....My strong sense of unconditional responsibility to love and care and look after my closest ones defines the meaning of my life....

Beside, with my school works and final year project stuff, I have almost infinity amount of things to keep me distracted....

So stopping now and shun myself completely will be the best for me and perhaps to someone too...

Feel so much relieved after blogging now....

Going to make my 1st house visit (拜年) later...

I am enjoying soon!

虎年快乐！