Puzzling

Saturday morning....

Randomly, I was wondering...

Am I really interested in the job which I have got ?

Because there is hardly any motivation to makes me to prepare for the work, which will begins on 11 of August....

Nor I feel any moments of creativity that would usually struck me if I find something needed to improve...

Lack of experiences perhaps denied that motivation....

Ironically, I am looking forward to my 1st day at work....

Myself

Lately....

I have been behaving crazily with my sister....

Mocking discussion of some sense of seriousness, with the lameness kind of suggestion I can think of....

LOL....

That prompted my sister to question my behavior when I am with someone I love....

I wonders...

Somehow... she reminded me who I am....

I couldn't reveal my character to someone I love...

I tend to be much more conservative ...

Or perhaps it is natural to behave so....

Or perhaps it was only a short span...

Or perhaps the one I love would be the one....

I would feel comfortable with, while being myself....

Working Life

Missed some update of my life....

Yeah....

I found a job!

In the marine line...

But as a design engineer in automation for vessel.....

The design aspect of the job is the main attraction for me to apply especially in the field of automation....

Somehow i got the job based on my sheer luck.... hmm....

or perhaps my 101% EQ helped me....

LOL.

11 of August is the new beginning of my working life.....

대한민국!

Yesterday was sort of a Korea day...

Meet up with my Korean friend, Jon Won, and Gabriel, for dinner at a Korean restaurant call "jung wha gak"....

Jon Won recommended this restaurant as it is one of the best place selling Korean style "Zha Jiang Mian"...

Actually we reached early as we thought we could have our late lunch there...

The restaurant only operates during dinner hours...

Anyway we spent the rest of the 1.5 hours at a nearby coffee shop, playing Monopoly Deal....

Oh yeah...

We went to the restaurant at around 6pm...

Hmmmm.... The noodle taste pretty good...Unique....

Not as sweet as expected... which is good...

Actually like noodles with satay sauces...So.... everyone has different taste preference...

Anyway is a nice exposure to Korean style Chinese Cuisine...

We make our next trip to a pub to catch a World Cup soccer game between Korea and Greece....

There were already some Koreans in the pub.....

Yeah....

대한민국! 대한민국! 대한민국!

The usual phase that you would hear from the Korean supporters...

And in fact....

The Korea team won the game and every goal was responded with ear blasting scream of celebration....d-_-b....

And I was abused by Jon Won....

He can't control his emotion over every goals... LOL...

The day did spent well....

Looking forward for tomorrow and figuring ways to get distracted..

MC day

Oh yeah...

Spent my day resting at home...

Rented 3 movies with my sister....

Brides War, Alice in Wonderland, Sherlock Holmes

Watched Bride War and Sherlock Homes.....

Both turns out to be unexpectedly good...

Guess Anne Hathaway and Robert Downey Jr. did make both movie attractive...

Catching Alice in Wonderland with my mum tomorrow or maybe on her rest day...

She wanted to watch during the showing period of the movie but changed her mind due to the pricey ticket...

Hopefully the rented version could still keep her rest day enjoyable...

Reminder...

Recovering well from my flu and sore throat...

But developing cough soon...

I have been reading some books on motivation and personnel developments...

One of the book gives 3 reasons why we fail to make "know to action":

Overloaded with information....

Negative attitude and mind set....

No follow-up plan.....

Those points sound quite true..

We are human,not machine....

We have memory that diminishes over time....

Often, we tried to be jack of all trade... But master of nothing....

Perhaps I should stay focus in what I am doing now....

I have been thinking deep yesterday night...

Perhaps I could have prevent the disappointment from happening if I have reminded her....

Somehow I did expect it to happen after some incidents and confessions...

Unexpected ?

Oh my...

Flu strike again....

But didn't lead to a fever...

Phew....

But sore throat and eventually will develop into cough....

Got some medication and was given 2 rest days at home....

Unexpected.....

Forgetful....

It turns out unexpected......

or....

expected ?

Although it was just a movie....

suppose to compensate the Twilight series after some miscommunication...

And it was initiated by her again...

I was so happy...

Does she thinks for me or as a friend?

I do...

Anyway it is her freedom to watch with any friends...

Feel so disappointed...

Simply-_-Edwin

Attention...

I seem to be trying hard to get some attention....

But it seem to be an opposite effect.....

Have been left cold again....

It seems to be a pretty busy period....

Tired....

Attending an interview tomorrow....

Not looking forward to it....

I need to let myself cool down...before attempting any pestering effect again...

Just tell me if there is anything wrong with me....

Sweat...

Went for an interview..

Design engineer with ST Marine...

Didn't prepare well for the interview....

Asked about the core business of the company...

Crapped the answer and caught by the interviewee... LOL...

Anyway I flung the interview....

Going for another interview on Friday...

This time round will prepare before hand....

Hopefully everything turn out smooth for me..

I care?

I have come to realize...

My paranoid is not because of how others treat me...

But rather I think I have cared too much for others that I am indirectly affecting their freedom and myself...

The problem lies within me...

I lost once because of this problem...

I might lost this time round again but a friendship...

Yeah...

We are grown up...

OR

perhaps i think too much again....

Busy ?

Maybe...

Army daze

Back to army today...

Return back to my previous unit after 3 years away from the camp...

There is a lot of changes especially my previous platoon which has merged with other platoons and no longer under my previous RQ...

Missed the times under him although it was a terror under his supervision... He protects his men well and gave what they deserved.....

The new RQ....

Well..

Miss Tang....

Hmm.....I doubt she could so...

Taking into consideration the new and sensitive "head log"...

Anyway only left with 81 days before ORD....

Attempting

Missing someone....

Thought of SMS or chat with her...

But I am holding back....

Somehow...

I don't feel mature or capable enough to give her any sense of security...

The past 4 days...

I have just came back from my Malaysia trekking trip at Lata Beremban!!

It was a nice place for hiking or maybe because it is my first ever mountain trekking..

And also the bumpy ride up to the base camp via the 4 Wheel Drive vehicles...

Got a lot of bruises and muscle aching after reaching the base camp... d*_*b..

The base camp was near to a waterfall.... and was very cold in the night....

Amazingly, there isn't any mosquitoes but lots of leeches....

But fortunately, I wasn't bitten by any of it....

My friend whom I have dragged along got bitten instead... d-_-b..

Anyway we did some quality cooking for our dinner and in the dark, with only the head lamp providing enough illumination when cooking the food; cooked curry, pasta, cereal chicken...

All in all I had a great fun there.... And looking forward for another trekking soon...

FYP presentation

The presentation didn't goes well....

The Professors rise doubts about my method....

Not impressive....

I feel like i am having 2 moderators ....

Anyway it is over....

Sometime...

Passion doesn't means you need to go in depth to understand it more...

But rather enjoying it within your comfort means...

Because going too deep may shut off your interest completely...

Just for a moment....

The motivation was just the sudden thoughts...

Thoughts that relieve my minds from technical jargons....

The past few weeks have been fiercely battling with times....

At some moments....

I am so afraid to sleep....

Fear that the next day will be more intensive....

For the next few hours or so.....

The battle will be much more aggressive than before.....

The day is arriving.....

Just 4 more days....

SIMPLYedwind0_ob

Running short...

Time is running short....

5 weeks to my due date of the draft version of my FYP report....

Still struggling to set up my monitoring tool....

When can i start analyzing data....

Otherwise....

Nothing to compare and argue in my report.... d=_=b

FYP

I feel so stuck and lost now....

I have seriously no idea what i am doing for my fyp other than knowing that i need to acquire some signal and displaying it on certain GUI....

I cannot even understand what i am doing after some trial and error of getting what i want....

I have nothing to assure my reading is accurate and correct....

I don't even know if i am getting the right research materials....

My supervisors seem really keeping a distance away from me....

I doubt my FYP professor will even know me if i walk pass him...

I thought of suspend myself from school for 1 semester......

Feeling terrible....

My flu is really irritating....

Drowsy soon.... d=_=b|||

Learning

I wonders.....

To what extend have i applied my knowledge i learnt from school into my final year project....

Basically....

Nothing....

Pathetic....

Really ???

My perspective....

My scholarly friend argued that our FYP is not meant to be a project for us to apply our knowledge we learnt in school....

But rather to make us or give us the experience on how to plan or research a project....

Sound sensible and logical though....

Then what we learnt can only applied in examination...

True ?

I wonders...

Speechless

Oh yeah...

My words came true....

I flung my quiz!!!

Completely demoralized....

Again....

I did my tutorials...

In fact....

Majority did quite well...

I am the "minoritiyness"....

My days trying hard to revise seem wasted...

I was challenging the question without trying hard to solve it...

Or perhaps I was just "acting" to be hardworking....

Often...We always thinks that we need complicated method to solve a complicated problem...

It is seems that studying too much will makes us from thinking of the simplest way to solve a problem...

Which is why often the amazing discovery usually comes from a nobody....

What is next now ?

Start doing past year paper ?

I am really getting older....

Can't remember so well than before...

Easily agitated....

Telltale sign dO_ob?

How now?

Great...

Flung my quiz today....

I have been more hard working than usual in this semester...

Completed my tutorials before the lessons ...

Yet I dazed during the test....

Because I was completely lost....

I know how to do yet my mind was completely blank...

How frustration it was....

Not giving up.... Still doing my best...

Simply Lost Edwin

Tiring

Weird...

I started to get tired easily lately...

Only slept for 5 hours or less for the past few days...

Lamest thing is that i still could not make my time to do my final year report..

Spent too much time solving my tutorials....

I feel so inefficient....d=_=b|||

I am trying to convince myself to do my report now...

But seriously too tiring...

Scarily [x_x] Edwin

虎年初一

Happy Chinese Year!

The motivation of this post was to relieve or express myself of what ever i am paranoid with and couldn't share with anyone else....

Things seem uncertain and unclear and paranoid is often the resultant of such uncertainty...Guessing and imaging have been the best reasoning for things that are happening... Often, some couldn't overcome it and make the end of life as the solution....

Well... I should say that it is one of the phase of life that we need to overcome... something like experiencing the adolescence phase; the phase that decides the moral and ethic behavior in our eventual adulthood...

Fortunately, this phase is never a question to the meaning of my life....My strong sense of unconditional responsibility to love and care and look after my closest ones defines the meaning of my life....

Beside, with my school works and final year project stuff, I have almost infinity amount of things to keep me distracted....

So stopping now and shun myself completely will be the best for me and perhaps to someone too...

Feel so much relieved after blogging now....

Going to make my 1st house visit (拜年) later...

I am enjoying soon!

虎年快乐！

Life as a Student

Relationship though has been surfaced again ....

I have been thinking....

To what extend can i give, considering that i am still a student ? do_Ob

Security?

Concern?

Care?

Love?

These are emotional support...

Financial support?

How? d#_#b

Life as a student has been burden with living expenses and bills to settle...

rushing projects to meet deadline...

exams to prepare....

peer pressure to handle...

family problems to solve..

And many more that I am trying hard to forget...

With so much of burden now.....

Why should i take in more burdens or perhaps causing burden to others ?

But....

I can't predict the future...d-_-b

Perhaps there is someone willing to share my burden....

Where are you ? ........................du_ub

Best present

Out of the blue...

I realize the best present i received on my birthday was a conversation in the Window live messenger....

In fact....

The conversation was not initiated by me....

Perhaps that was the privilege of a birthday boy....

And thanks to the low battery too....

LOL..

When is the next ? d^_^b

What went wrong ?

Oh my god...

Have been doing things without really giving in a second thoughts....

Have been making decision harshly...

But often it makes the future a better one....

Really too tiring nowadays...

Wasted $9 for a screen protector...

Hopefully not going to waste the next one...

Definitely not because will be getting the pro to do the job....

Worst and Last

This semester seem to be my toughest and worst one...

Maybe due to the pressure from my final year report which is in due in this semester...

Yet....

I still could not get a proper result from my project...

I have yet even understand the basic for analysis program...

LabView...

Time seem getting shorter than usual...

Nowadays seem more tired than usual and tend to sleep early....

Too tired to read anything....

Coming weeks will be even worst...

Missed jogging for nearly 2 months...

But have been consistently training weights....

Am i old ?

Ridiculous Hewlett Packard

My HP laptop cracked when I lift up the cover....

Guess it did not manage to withstand the fall....

By the way...

My laptop was in an impact absorbing case when it fell from less than 1 m tall...

I have only use it for 4 months...

How fragile it is....

Yeah....

Judging from its material....

You can guess too...

Went to HP service centre....

The staff at the counter....

Looked not very confident or feeling headache to to see the problem of my laptop...

Commented that the damage is not under warranty... Need to pay for the damage....

Never mind...

I did expect that....

But the lamest thing came....

The entire LCD panel need to replaced because the LCD housing comes together with the LCD panel... and it cost $600 to $1000 just for the replacement...

I was stunned....

Just for a cosmetic damage on the housing where the LCD still functioning perfectly need to replace the entire panel???

Ridiculous....

I just need the housing..and HP should be able to provide the housing....

I could pay for it...

They could still save the LCD panel for the next panel related problem....

It does not make sense at all...

What if it is the logo on the housing of the LCD panel that came off?

Replace the entire panel ? do_Ob

What if it was just a scratch ?

$600 again?

And it was not a very strong impact yet it is enough to damage the chassis of the laptop... What about next time?

$600 again ?

Extremely dumb reason...

My netbook could withstand something worse than that!

HP has been one of the leading corporation in the electronic appliances industry yet the solution they could give was ridiculous and illogical...And simply lazy...

Can HP justify ?

Sensitive

I have always though that this could be the place....

Where I could voice out my dismay, dissatisfaction, perspective or my unspoken thoughts....

But somehow I need to consider the implication which may be sensitive to others....

Otherwise I would be totally shun off....

Perhaps anything personal has to be personal...

Other than that....

Endurance makes a day better...

What to blog now?

SimplYd=)_(=bEdwin

Gentlemen

Met up my sisters today... FT & SX...

Went shopping around orchard...

End up, having 2 ladies to company me for my shopping craze...

Brought 2 tops from Muji...

Like them a lot..

Vain...

But is my style...

Gossip

After having our fat nutritious desert at Swenson...

We started to gossip at the place...

Gossip about the character of each of our close friends...

From dressing to handling the opposite sex...

I was been the target again...

Yeah...

Not gentlemen enough...

Not decisive enough...

Immature...

Suit for little girls....

Why ?

I only carry the bag for someone i hug...

I only open the access door for someone i like...

I only offer my help to someone i care....

I just want only to be thoughtful for someone i love...

Want to be the gentlemen just for the only one...

Can i ?

SimplY=_=Edwin

Stupid!

Received a call today for my brother....

And the caller asked me several question about my brother...

Without a second thought..

I replied to him whatever he ask....

Fortunately...

There wasn't any sensitive or personal inform being asked...

I told my mum...

Scolded by her for being honest and revealing everything...

Wa!...

Get reprimanded for being honest ?

What a mum ...

LOL..

But after thinking again...

I shouldn't have reveal anything on behalf for my brother...

Stupid! Edwin...

Dumb Nut...

She also sarcastically commended that no wonder I always fail to woo a girl...

Honest...

LOL..

Yay... Bad guy is always the better one...

男人不坏女人不爱。。。。d=_=b

simplY=_=Edwin

Interview

My 1st full time interview seems went smoothly today...

But i did have some moment of silence...

What is my weakness...

Didn't really anticipate for that question...

But my chance seems slim....

The next interview is on 18 of Jan if I am shortlisted...

Lets pray hard..

SimplY=_=Edwin

26

Hohoho...

Happy 26th Birthday 崇瀚 aka Edwin!

I wish all the best in whatever i pursuit for....

Dreams come true....

A healthy year....

Everyone love each other....

Fulfill my 2010 resolution....

Everyone stay healthy...

Love all my sisters forever...

Lastly world peace Forever...

SimplY=_=Edwin

Thanks for my Sisters, fang ting and Shu Xian for

organizing the birthday dinner! And the crazy photo session !

2010

This post marks the 1st day of 2010!

I could not sleep well this morning and was reluctant to wake up by my alarm clock....

Yesterday had a good last day of 2009 at my friend's house for a game of Ray man and the Rabbits by Wii...

It was really fun, exciting and exhausting...

First ever to sweat while playing a game console...d=_=b....

The game really makes you exercise...

Wii console is really a good investment if you loves to organize gathering...

With its small and compact size, it is possible to bring to places like chalet etc...

Though of buying the console....

But I need to get my Digital Camera...

Left with 3 days before I meet up my FYP supervisor...

Got to rush my FYP...

Where is my report ? Oh my god..

Happy 2010!

SimplY=_=Edwin